New Year, New Goals

aka NY;NG.
I know it's pretty far into the New Year already (because my birthday is right around the corner!) but I thought I'd make it a point to challenge myself to go above and beyond what I normally do. Not this semester. Not Cornell. But LIFE. It has recently come to my attention that my generation and the art movement in general has come to a stand still. Where people once valued the depth and breadth of a piece, there is only the value of simplistic irony in a statement. Graphic Ts are spreading like wildfire on this one idea alone. We've lost this great understanding...or at least the struggle for understanding; connection.
Why would anyone want to lose that? It's like we've not only accepted ignorance...but we're asking it into our lives. That's not something I understand. When is ignorance bliss?
This is where I started...and this is why I'm making it my goal this year to stay aware and attuned to my surroundings. I know that's so vague and broad...but let me explain. I haven't had much inspiration lately, and I blame that on myself. I think that if I were to really try and focus on the world around me...I could see what I'm missing. As it has been lately, I haven't taken the time to do that, at all. Someone once said taking pictures might help...and it might...but keeping my eyes open will do the same thing. Taking time to write down a note on a piece of paper to not forget...that is one thing. There's SO much going on around me. It's a waste to just ignore it. I guess that's what I'm trying to accomplish here. This is my soapbox. Tear back the ignorance!
Goal number two is...a bit different. It's not so much a soapbox than a resolution of sorts. Apparently I have a tendency to say the right wrong thing at the wrong right time. I've been told it's more of a knack than a tendency. This is where I apologize to everyone I've wronged doing that and vow to think more before I speak. I feel like I've stepped in that direction...taking a longer time to make a decision rather than being stead fast to something emotionally. This is something I would advocate EVERYONE do. It takes a certain kind of person to be able to question their own beliefs for validity...but there has to be a balance...you have to be able to make a decision...or else what good does it do a person to see both sides and not have a judgement. It doesn't. Balance is difficult. So play Devil's Advocate with yourself from time to time, you'll be surprised what you can find out...and take time before you say something...try to seriously think about what you say before you say it.

Existence of Love?

Love exists as long as you are not questioning whether it exists or not. Once you start wondering if you love someone...it is gone.

Etiquette of Online Dating

So I was just thinking...what kind of rules does one follow in the realm of online dating? Is it like the real world? Do you date one person at a time or are you constantly on the lookout and "dating" until you find someone you feel relatively sure about? Do you have options? Are there any "meant to be"s?
Is there even any kind of etiquette? Have we left any kind of courtship all together now that we've moved this to the online world?

Housemates....

So...I don't necessarily want to talk about any one person....but sometimes...just like. You have to be conscious of who is in the room. I love when people have different opinions, however, please don't judge MY opinion AND don't be rude about yours. Kay??? Jeez-us.

Not sure of a title quite yet. I hate titles.

I never wanted to be the girl defining her life by relationships....oh well. I also decided early on that I wouldn't drink or do anything horrifically modifying to my body (like thousands of piercings). We've seen how that went.
I want to start off by saying that It's been 4 months since he broke up with me. More or less. I really really really really really really wanted to be over it by now. I'm mostly over it...but I wish it didn't bother me so much that he doesn't want to talk since I've started seeing somebody else.
One thing I can thank whatever deity may exist is that I'm not one of those girls who conforms to her guy of the moment's trends...nope. not me. I'm not a chameleon in that regards. I like to think that I'm more like a rock than a puddle of water...but maybe that's just me. Water is as malleable as anything on earth...shape and size and consistency anyways. But rock...rock is not. it may weather over time...but it does not change the shape of itself as quickly as a puddle will.
Speaking of puddles...it seems like it's always raining in Ithaca...making me realize how much I want to be a child again...when I didn't mind getting wet in the rain. As an adult I'm always rushing through the rain to some undisclosed location. It's worrisome. I want to be more child like. I remember one rainstorm in San Antonio where me and my younger brother played in the mud and pretended to be Indians...or Native Americans. We called them Indians because children aren't as bothered by political correctness as the rest of the world, aka the adult population.
Anyways, I miss those days of relatively little responsibility. I suppose I will also look back on my College days and miss this, too. Little responsibility + drinking age. :)
By the way, Kant. Yeah. He is a very dense read.

So Far Gone

The semester has begun and I'm as busy as ever.
This should be no surprise by now, but I'm always consumed by my work and studying...and I can never get used to getting off of break mode. I've been doing this for years, you would think I would know by now, right? Oh well.
Life is well...as it should be. I'm having problems in my love life, as well, however.
I guess time will only tell how it all goes.
I'm sorry about how bad this is, I haven't been writing since I went to Cape Cod and since I moved in for the semester, well...life has just been rough. Let's leave it at that. At the same time, I've started following all of my new friends on here, and it's come to the point where I feel I should probably be doing something on here. I feel so much like a bum. I need to get more inspiration....as soon as I have more time to think and breathe....come on Cornell!
Life will go on. Someday soon.
:)

The end of America as we thought we knew it

I feel like having a political rant right about now, so let me be.
If any of you know me, you'll know that I'm a crazy leftist liberal hell-bent on ruining our capitalist markets.....or what the Religious Right would have you believe.
Really? I'm all about equality for EVERYONE. Not just in classes, but between classes. Our society so values wealth that the wealthy have even been able to convince the middle and lower classes that it's a good thing to have the mega-rich squander away all of our capital....somehow.
And to be totally honest, I don't agree. Call me anit-American all you want, because what I want is for the America I grew up believing in to be what it has always promised to be, a place to live in with a dream of living without worry and anxiety.
Apparently that's anit-American rhetoric, however. Because I want the mega-rich to pay taxes on their share and to let the rest of us live in peace. I am NOT against the wealthy, I only think that they have to pay their fair share. Why are WE supporting them when they can support themselves and 5 small nations? Huh? It doesn't make any sense, and the fact that the extreme poor are following their rhetoric is outrageous.
Don't even get me started on the Religious Right.....it's their goal to make this country into a real God-fearing nation...to bring Jesus and "God" into schools and make everyone believe that the bible is the full truth and nothing but the truth. This shit is pervasive enough as it is. Swearing to the Flag "under God," swearing to tell the truth and nothing but the truth on the bible.
And even funnier is that these nut cases want us to believe this insane ideology while they go behind our backs and do the exact opposite. Double-speak.
Our country is living the book 1984....every right that is taken away is one step closer to a third world status....total inequality. Do we really want that? It almost seems like there's no hope for America. Get out while you still can!!!!